Understanding Choices ,Destiny and The labyrinth

A dear friend once told me , at a time when I self doubted, that, God’s power of supreme free will for humans is that, what is safe for you will always be yours.
I took it for what it meant. That no matter what I do, or whatever happens, What is mine(my destiny) ill reach it, if I have my free will to guide me.
Today, I understand things better.And the importance of this in so many ways.
and although this advice seems too simple. Its more deeper . Here goes

First, you got to ask yourself if there is anything such as destiny. If things are already written in the stars, if there is a twin star for another star( a fantasy way of putting it) , but to be exact in words of  God himself: to believe in “Qadar” Qadar (Arabic: قدر‎) is an Arabic word for destiny and divine foreordainment.Divine destiny is when God wrote down in the Preserved Tablet (“al-Lauḥ al-Maḥfūẓ”) all that has happened and will happen, which will come to pass as written.
Think of it this way. Time is the fourth dimension. Humans can access present and some of the past but not future. Like when we see a 3D shape we can look at it from all directions in all axis, also God can see the fourth dimension from all axis past, present and future. . Allah is not effected by time…he created time….we are living our life but Allah already knows what we are going to do…because of this he is All Knowing. According to this belief, a person’s action is not caused by what is written in the Preserved Tablet but, rather, the action is written in the Preserved Tablet because God already knows all occurrences without the restrictions of time.
So Destiny is of two types

a) Muallaq (revocable):

This destiny is written on ‘The Preserved Tablet’ (al Lawh al Mahfoodh), and is subject to change and alteration through the omission or commission of certain deeds.

b) Mubram (irrevocable):

This destiny denotes the eternal knowledge of Allah. It encompasses the final result of the Muallaq destiny i.e. our choice of actions, their consequences and every precise detail of our lives. This definite knowledge of Allah is not subject to change or alter even slightly and is exclusive to Allah only.

Now the next part of the advice: “FREE WILL”
God gave us FREEWILL. And since he is the creator he knows the outcome before you are even born.This occurs when a person is in the womb of the mother, specifically 120 days after conception. Allah sends an angel to put a soul into the person, and the angel writes down the decree that Allah has made; his life-span, his sex, his sustenance (how much he will earn throughout his lifetime), his soulmate (with which he will be able to create the energy God gave him and mulitiplies it with another). Since Allah is the most just, He gave us free will in order to TEST us in this world. Again Since he is the creator he knows the future. Allah can forgive for you for anything as long as you repent and ask for forgiveness and the guidance when you are in a situation to make a choice. He KNOWS if you will ask for it at some point and that too would be out of free will.

So now read this again : God’s power of supreme free will for humans is that, what is safe for me will always be mine.

What sidetracks us from our destiny is infact ,our CHOICES.  It is the Free will ,THE FREEHAND, THE ABILITY to chose ,what poses hinderence in getting to whats written for us. And whats written for us, is best for us.and whats best for us, is what our soul will always crave for as it was written for it when we were born in this body and our soul was sealed with its fate.

We always look for the perfect soul mate, but yet never find.Seems like everyone is in a dillema of deciding between who is really our destiny or who is just a choice…because everyone in their own ways are presenting their better self , to be for with their destiny. So,when you have to make that decision between people you have learnt to care about,its a selfish act that has to be done, so while one suffers a heartbreak and the one who makes this decision is happy or may suffer  if he did wrong decision to pick “choice” over destiny and the third who also got   a destiny for himself could be happy or maybe not because for him too it was a ‘choice’. Maybe to begin with, all of them were not for each other.Maybe two of them yes.  People who meet their destined match RARELY happen . so there are more failed relationships then succesful ones.and so there is even a plural form of this word: Relationships.. And this is not a bad thing, its just a consequence, not a consequence of our failure/greed/lonilness but a consquence of everyones  natural desire to reach our destiny. Every molecule vibrates to that energy because it is in constant motion to reach its destiny.Like a magnetic field .

Its when you start exploring your choices that you add more twists and turns to what was your straight path to destiny. So this could get you lost in a maze, with no exit gate in sight, and with that comes  no hope of believng in an  exit gate, a labyrinth. The exit gate , Exists. The exist gate was your destiny from the start.the straight path.
But you cant blame yourself for it, Because like you another person was making the same “choice” for you , considering you to be his destiny and another, so on and on the cycle continues.
When we meet someone we share ideas with, we immediately start looking for signs and clues, like date of birth, horoscopes , interests in music, taste in food, materliastic things we desperately try to think them as some divine sign, and its natural to develop care for such a person, we adore them, and  we hope one day love them to as we believe that this could be our destiny. Love can be created. Its not fake…no one tries to be malicious with another because he/she too is looking for the same thing u are…But love, it has many forms and intensities. So even the “the two choice couples” getting together can share love, but a point comes where they realize they were just two people who adored each other.  Unfortunately with emotions that leads to an ugly end..and the quest continues to find our destiny. Because we start for another “choice”.
By that time, it will be too late.
Hence the importance of guidance of your free will. and the need to ask guidance of your God who wrote the destiny for you that was yours to have.
SO how to know if someone is really your destiny or a choice? because intially love is a very common initial feeling for both cases of choices and destiny. However the trick is to know that love with a destined one is very simple and pure, its not intense and filled with  extremes of emotions, its one of the basic things, like nature, a crystal clear fountain, the sound of water trickling, Like breeze over grass, The signs of God’s love ;
so pure,
so basic. and around us.
We feel it. but we dont appreciate it.This may sound as a paradox, that we also ’ feel’ the other kind of love. But as i said, love has many forms.The most basic of the forms, is what is yours forever , if you have been able enough to reach it, and understand it.One such love is the Love of God for his  creations DESPITE and DESPITE of all the things we do wrong against His desires.


Im only learning things and understanding things,as i experience them. Understanding comes  , with no emotions and when im  just with myself and my Creator. Knowledge and understanding of your surroundings is the best feeling in the world. But one of the most difficult to tap into, given the chaos of the world around us, and our human tendency to be guided by emotions.

The answers are all with you.

All the things I said above are really difficult to do, But not impossible, And I wish everyone and formyself to be guided and not be distracted by choices. Remember, choices are not bad or good
Because a choice can provide both,good or bad times
they are just what they are, choices
 they are temporary
and they will accompany you pass this short life time. 

What I feel I do best.

I tried faking through thoughts and listen to alot of people telling me positive things and giving good advise. I appreciate their effort and kind words, and I know positive vibrations attract positivity .
But FUCK IT.
I can’t fake feelings
I can’t pretend to try be something in hopes that It will one Day be a part of me .
I KNOW  i’m the exception
and certainly in this aspect too, I’m the exception to The Law Of Attraction.
Not today.
But always has been. And always will be. 
and it sucks because everyone’s advice nullifies.

I have my own way of dealing with depression. And thats what I do best and teaches me more and makes me grow and understand. 
I believe there is a faint vision possible even in total darkness
You know that feeling ? when you are in light and suddenly the power shuts off and its pitch black. You can’t see whats ahead of you or behind you, to your left and right, so the safest thing is to come to a stand still .
But your eyes adapt. Your pupils dilate. And you can still see a very faint glow of things around you in the darkness.
“Ive learnt there is light even in the darkest of places. “

So my way of dealing with depression is that :  I dont deal with it—I Embrace it. 
Because thats something I feel home at.
Thats something I feel I do best.
That faint glow is what I’m addicted to. 
I can’t see anything. But all of my other senses are on full alert.
I feel more
I reflect more
I radiate more.
I Get HIGH.

I hate that someone feels pity or sympathy for someone being in depression. But believe me I love it because it never disappoints me. And this does’nt mean I feel this way because Ive given up on hope or feel like a loser so I dont expect much and so its safe when u dont have any expectations. NO . This is  my Throne. I own every inch of this land and it gives me Power.
Happiness ( or more correctly the Need to feel happy rather than happiness itself) is so damaging to a person like me that I dare not even pretend to hope and listen to or tell myself positive affirmations
For the rest of you it works
but Fuck You
Im Not like You
so Thankyou But Fuckyou all normal people.

My Sorrow Attracts.. Just like in Physics . Energy flows from + to -. I attract +ve to my -ve as one of the most strongest forces.
Positive only Repels Positive
And Negative and Positive have the strongest bonds of energy.

SO anyone who believes in the lame Secret law of attraction and Manifestation, and thinks has understood it all is what I feel sorry for. Because even then, they are not happy , and they delusion themselves and build  a fake world of lies. because People are just sheep, they believe anything that sounds convincing or logical. Logic is not what is popular. Logic is personal . Experience is better than deductive logic .
When you try to create something out of fake FORCED feelings( like “IM HAPPY , I LOVE , I Am Wealthy”) , You lose morals. You dont care for other peoples pain, you become selfish. Thats the worst loss ever. To be human, and yet not feel any human emotion. I can’t live with that.. And all you people can keep living this lie and still get disappointed by it. Cuz when you recieve love or money this way, you know in your subconscious that you don’t really love the way it is meant to be or other one deserves,that the money earned still makes you more greedy and no satisfaction, yet u play along because it makes you happy ,” pretend happy” , because you fooled your brain into manifesting this love. This form of success.
and hence, love is just an illusion for you
and hence, money is never enough. There is no blessing in your earning.
you fooled your brain, but  your subconscious knows. Your ego is happy but You soul is not.

No wonder the world is so corrupt
Politicians
Businessmen
People
they’ve become selfish manifesting a fake-earned-reality for themselves.

But I wont do that
I dont follow the norm.
I set the rules.
I own everything because I earned it the right way.


“I’m in love with the darkness of the night
I’m in love with all that’s out of sight
I’m in love with the magic of the new
And the darkness loves me, too ”

Remember, that a Liar will always say “Im not a liar”